Empties! Products I’ve Used Up

Hi guys! I’m back! I know I don’t update too often nor do I have the most amazing content, but I do put my heart into this blog and hope you guys keep checking it out once in a while!

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Products I’ve used up!

So today I want to talk about the products I’ve used up in the last few months.

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Petal Fresh Hair Rescue

Petal Fresh was introduced to me by a friend who works for the brand. It contains organic ingredients, no harmful chemicals such as silicon, parabens, GMO, and is eco-friendly. It also claims to reduce hair lose, strength and thicken hair.

When I first tested these products out, I really didn’t have high hopes- all products claim to make your hair shiny, healthy, blablablah… I didn’t notice any significant change until I was half way through the bottle. One day I suddenly noticed there was really less fall outs when I washed my hair and less breakage when I brushed it. I don’t expect it to multi-task, but I think this is a sign that my hair is getting healthier.
Rate: 4/5
Will I repurchase? Already did.

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Kiehl’s Olive Fruit Oil Deeply Repairative Hair Pack

The Kiehl’s Olive Fruit Oil Deeply Repairative Hair Pack was a repurchase. It is the hair mask for dry, damaged, under-nourished hair in the Kiehl’s collection. I perm my hair and use heat on it a lot, so this mask is my daily hair conditioner. The way I use this mask or any conditioner is I shampoo my hair, rinse it, put this mask on evenly, focusing towards the ends, then I wash my face and other body parts before going back to rinse off the mask. So the mask stays on the hair for a good 2-3 minutes at least. It really softens and smoothens my hair.
Rate: 4/5
Will I repurchase? Yes

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The Body Shop British Rose Shower Gel

I have been using the Body Shop’s products on and off. Their stuff is alright, not great, but not bad either. I am a fan of rose and just had to get this British Rose Shower Gel (plus, it was on sale!) It had a nice natural rose scent (as some scents from the Body Shop are quite artificial to me,) did its job as a shower gel, but wasn’t enough capture my heart.
Rate: 3/5
Will I repurchase? Maybe when it’s on sale again

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John Masters Organics Rose Foaming Face Wash

The John Masters Organics Rose Foaming Face Wash was a product I came across online. It’s supposed to cleanse your face gently with natural ingredients e.g. rose flower oil, linden blossom, plantain and aloe vera gel. It was really nice and gentle and my skin loved it. It was a great fall/ winter product. However I feel like it’s not strong enough as a cleanser in the summer when my face gets sweaty and oily.
Rate: 4/5
Will I repurchase? Probably later in the fall, if there’s no new product I want to try.:)

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BORGHESE Fango Active Mud Mask

I got the BORGHESE Fango Active Mud Mask because I encountered it at work. It is an Italian brand and this signature mask is to purify, hydrate and reduce fine lines. For some reason I just didn’t find myself reaching for it, maybe because of its thick consistency that made it hard to rinse off. I used it on my neck and and chest as well and did notice that my skin was a bit whiter and smoother after using it. However for its price I’d expect better results. It took me over a year to finish the 200g, I think it says something.
Rate: 2.5/5
Will I repurchase? Probably not

 

I’ve apparently used up more products than these in these couple months, but some empty bottles have gotten thrown away (mistakenly). Hope you guys enjoyed the review and let me know how you liked it!

Until next time. xx

Chillbecca

In 2017, I want to be chill.

Growing up Asian, I’ve been taught to be “result-oriented,” to “do things quickly,” to be “competitive.” I have no patience for anything. When I hang out with friends that are not Asian, I almost always, always get asked the same question: why are you walking so fast, Captain Turbo? I always give the same respond: because the wind’s blowing and it’s cold, I want to get (wherever we’re heading) quickly.

In the 2 months break I had in between my last and current jobs, I had the time to deeply think about my family, friends, personal life, career, which, was pretty much just life in general. I’d wanted to learn fast, do things fast, grow up fast… until I realized, why am I not getting anywhere? I was constantly comparing myself to others, in every aspect- and it did me no good. I’ve now realized that the only one I need to compare to is myself; that in order to actually grow up, you need time to reflect, to think about the mistakes you’ve made, to figure out the solutions; that looking back is needed in order to move forward.

So in 2017, I decided to grow up in my own pace, not in the pace to compete, to chase the people that are ahead of me. I am going to just chill. I hope you are too.

Until next time. xx

Colorpop Fall Collection Haul (Love A Flare And More!)

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I know, I know, I’m probably the last person to try out the Colorpop cosmetics but I finally did and I was so excited to order Love A Flare from the fall edit and a bunch of other stuff. So keep going and see if they’re something you’d like as well!:)

At the beginning I was a little hesitant because I wasn’t sure what I was gonna do with moonwalk, and the colours high rise and head hush looked a little similar to me. But I’m so glad I did because the colours are GORGEOUS. You can create so many day and night looks with them, they stay on and blend so easily. You probably already know, Colorpop’s eyeshadows have a moose consistency and dry to powder. So be careful when you apply if you’re new to makeup or not used to it, otherwise it could get a little messy.

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Swatches top to bottom: MOONWALK, MELROSE, I SPY, BY MY SIDE, HIGH RISE, HEAD RUSH (I’m still quite tan from the summer…)

Off to the face and lips. I got 2 blushes- BARDOT and BIRTHDAY SUIT.

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Left: BIRTHDAY SUIT Right: BARDOT

You can see that the colour payoff is awesome for BARDOT; for BIRTHDAY SUIT, not so much, which I’m a little disappointed (that’s like 3 swatches already in the picture.) The good news is, both colors stay on the cheeks through out the day.

They are not the same, but if I had to pick between the ultra satin lip and lippie stix, I’d definitely pick the lippies. If you haven’t heard enough good things about the Colorpop lippies, let me tell you, it’s probably the best lip sticks I’ve come across. I always have to have some lip balm on for any matte or semi matte finish lipsticks. But not for the Colorpop lippies. They are obviously not moisturizing, but they don’t not hang on or emphasize dry patches. I mean, I don’t know about other colors but I’ll definitely order more in the future. The ultra satin lip is not bad, it goes on the lips rather smoothly, but in comparison it does feel more drying.

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Top: Ultra Satin Lip in November Bottom: Lippie Stix in LUMIERE, both from the Kathleen Lights collection

For the eyeliner, I feel like I’ll have to test it out more to give a fair review, but I’m liking it so far, I’ve wanted a bronzy brown for so long and this eyeliner color Mr. Bing, which is also from the Kathleen Lights collection (yes, you can tell she’s one of my favorite YouTubers,) has already stolen my heart.

Colorpop just came out with a Hello Kitty collection, and they are not offering free international shipping if you spend 50$ or more till the end of the year! Definitely go check it out if you’re a fan or haven’t already!

Hope you enjoyed! Until next time.

Review-Rimmel London Moisture Renew Lipsticks

Let me just start by telling you how much I love these lipsticks. I was testing these out in Australia and could have included them in the last post, but I could not. These babies were just too good that I HAD to talk about them in a separate post.

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I got the colour As You Want Victoria, and the next day I went pick up three more colours- In Love With Ginger, Notting Hill Nude and Woke Up Like This. This range claims to “moisturize lips without compromising on colour” and it really does what it says. It has outstanding colour payoff, is moisturizing and lasts a long time. I wouldn’t say it lasts all day, because you and I both know that no makeup actually lasts all day, but the colour really stays on for hours. With these babies I can even skip lip balm, and my lips look soft and moisturized.

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Top to bottom: Woke Up Like This, Notting Hill Nude, In Love With Ginger, As You Want Victoria

The only con is that the colour transfers to everything that touches your lips. It could be a little bit of a hassle, but don’t ask me how, there’s still colour on your lips even after them being touched by a million objects.
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I would say the formula is perfect for fall and winter, and if you’re looking for something moisturizing, bright and bold, but not overly glossy. The collection has a huge range of colours, go grab one if you haven’t already and I promise you’ll go back and get more!

Hope you enjoyed! Until next time.

Aussie’s Goodies- Beauty

I knew I was gonna buy some beauty and skincare products while in Australia, what I didn’t know was I would almost completely refill my makeup bag with new products. Because, well, I had forgotten to take my makeup bag with me. Technically, I could still survive with the minimal makeups I took with me on the plane- a cream foundation compact which I used for touchups only, a sample sized loose powder, a mini blush, an eyeliner and a sample sized mascara. But why would I let go of the chance for me to buy new makeups? (Thank God I had my skincare items and makeup brushes… who knows what would happen if I didn’t?)

A lot of these products were not new, they were just new to me and have stolen my heart since.

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Hello Australia

The day after I finally quit my job, I hopped on a plane to Sydney.

Australia had been one of my favourite places and had given me one of the best memories ever since my first visit when I was 9, even though all that I could remember was the Sydney Opera House, the rainforest in Cairns, the stargazing, the hot air balloon, the koala bear I touched, whose fur wasn’t too soft, the aggressive pregnant kangaroo I fed, the breathtaking fireflies and the giant french fries. I knew that I had gotten under the water and witnessed the Great Barrier Reef (and tried catching a Nemo there,) I remembered getting on a helicopter, but the details had faded away. After all these years and with the vague memories, I was so excited and looking forward to the trip.

Australia did not disappoint me, she welcomed me with perfect spring weather, delicious food and a lot of warm smiles. Before getting into those, I have to confess that I did not do much planning beforehand, because all I wanted was relax and have a fun time visiting my sister, who’s studying there right now. However, if you are planning to visit Australia, and are usually a well planned tourist, the following tips may be helpful to you.

  1. Get the Visa
    Unless you are an Australian or New Zealand citizen, you will need a visa to enter Australia. You can either get one at your nearest Australian Consulate; I got mine online. More information here.
  2. Ask the flight attendant for a ginger ale or ginger beer
    I mean, you can’t be on a plane to Australia and be asking for some apple juice, right?
  3. Get the SIM card and your phone settled before you leave the airport
    Okay this seems obvious, but no, because I made a huge mistake on it. My sister got me a SIM card at Coles, which gave me 10Gb of data (forgot about text and minute limits, but who really cares when you have data?) and was way cheaper than getting it in the provider store. But I needed to go to that provider to get a code to activate it and it might take up to 24 hours to work. Long story short, the card did not work. That was 2 days after I landed. Being so desperate and frustrated, I went into another provider which was more expensive and would only give 500mb (unlimited texting and calls, tho) for the same credits.
    Moral of the story: don’t be penny wise and pound foolish.
  4. Look up the zoos
    There are a lot of zoos in Australia. We went to the Taronga Zoo which was the city zoo in Sydney and it was a lot of fun. There were peacocks walking around and lizards chilling to greet you, and the emus would just go straight to your face for a selfie or a kiss. However, if you’re looking to feed a kangaroo or cuddle a koala bear, this might not be the best place to visit. You can get real close to a kangaroo, but you don’t get to feed it; you can get real close to a koala bear (with an extra charge,) but you don’t get to touch it. It is illegal to touch a koala bear in New South Wales. Unless you’re the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge, otherwise you will have to visit Queensland, South Australia or West Australia for a real koala encounter.

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  5. Pictures with the Opera House
    Who goes to Sydney without visiting the Opera House? However, if you’re just looking for a nice picture with it (and the BridgeClimb), go to the northern shore of Sydney Harbour, where the Luna Park is. There is a lot less crowded, you get the same beautiful view and is way easier to capture the BridgeClimb and the Opera House together in one picture.

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    I promise there’s no filter.
  6. No tipping necessary
    Of course you can always be generous, but tipping is not necessary in Australia. There is a 10 per cent Goods & Service Tax (GST) when you shop and dine. However, unlike in the UK, this is not a service charge that goes toward the staff. So if you had a really nice hospitality, feel free to tip the server ~10 per cent of the bill.
  7. Shopping Thursday
    A lot of malls in Sydney open seven days a week, but they typically close at around 6p.m., except on Thursdays. There’s a thing called “shopping Thursday,” which malls open until 9p.m. So if you want to go for a crazy shop, you know the days to go.
    On a side note, you may be able to claim a refund on the GST if you spend AUD300 or more in one shop, no more than 30 days before departing Australia. You can check out the process here.
  8. Travel long distance on Sundays
    If you’re traveling around NSW, get an opal card to hop on any public transportation. It offers you travel discounts, and only needs AUD2.5 to go anywhere on the entire Sunday.
  9. Drink up
    Just a kind reminder that the drinking age is 18 in Australia.:) Wish I could be excited about it, but I have way passed this age…:(
  10. Relax and have a lot of fun
    Australia is so multi-culture, you will see people from around the world and hear diverse accents. It is very slow paced and a great place to recharge your batteries. Just look…

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    I am very busy can’t you see?
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    Foreshore Park by Nobbys Beach

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    Luna Park

Things I learn from Resigning from My First Long-Term Job

Yes I finally resigned. It’d been on my mind for a couple months before I finally decided, more accurately, had the guts to submit my resignation. It’s my first long-term job and I really liked it for a while. Resigning was a tough decision, but I’m glad I did and everyday I thank myself more for doing it. Looking back, I wasn’t happy in the past six months, felt so stressed and defeated; I don’t even know how I made it through and why I held on to it.

This is to record my lesson from this past few months, and also to show you that if you are having similar experiences or feelings at work, maybe it’s time to go.

  1. I am not happy.
    When someone tells you, “no one is happy at work. Do you job and suck it up.” It is FALSE. That person is only trying to make you as sad as they are. Work takes up at least one-third of your time a day, how can you stand the unhappiness, the depression, the frustration for that long on a daily basis? If you’re unhappy, something is wrong.
  2. I try to be what they want me to be and it does not work.
    So cliche but so true. When my supervisor told me that nobody liked working with me, I put really deep thoughts into it. I got defensive at first because I thought that was non-sense; then I got scared, I tried to compromise and please everyone. Now I’m not saying you shouldn’t compromise at all, sometimes you do need to put yourself down a bit and cope with people around you. But being someone that is not yourself is not the move. You will never ever make everyone happy, especially when they are unhappy to begin with.
  3. I doubt myself.
    I was constantly being told that I was not capable enough, that all I did was shit. I was a senior executive but failed to even qualify as an assistant. I was so destroyed that I lost all the confidence and panicked over the tiniest things. I believed that I sucked. But seriously, why would I trust someone that’s so mean to me, that wanted nothing but destroy me, over myself? Please don’t do this to yourself. Believe yourself within reasons, and you’ll be queen.
  4. I lose focus. I am surviving, not living.
    Everything we do it life, there’s a purpose. We work to make a living but there’s more than just “work” and “living”. It started to kill me physically and psychologically because I had no time for myself, for anyone or anything. My mind was all packed with work, with doubt, with wonder, with everything that did me no good. I knew I needed time off to figure things out, figure MYSELF out.

There are a lot of people I need to thank in the past 1.5 years. Every time I felt like dying inside, there were always little angels or encouragements of some sort that came up and kept me going. However, the person I want to thank most is myself. Thank you for being tough, thank you for holding on and trying so hard to make things work, thank you for giving yourself a chance and being brave enough to make changes, and good job on finding what you don’t like because that’s the first step of figuring yourself out.

If you have done your best and have no regret or guilt, and people still do not appreciate you, you need to be the first one to give yourself credits, then move on. You deserve better in life. It’s like a relationship, you love him, he loves you, then shit happens, but you stay because you think it’ll get better, it doesn’t. It’s hard to let go because you’re used to the usual practice and the comfort zone, even though it gives you no comfort, you still want to hang on. The world is so big, you have to look further in order to go further. I cannot wait till my last day at this job, not because I hate it (I don’t, I love the job itself,) but the freedom, relief and the chance to see the world.

Summer Outfit Ideas

I have a love-hate relationship with summer. I love the idea of sun, beach, breeze, shorts and tank tops… But the humidity and sweats kill me. Before each summer arrives I like to go grab a few new items to help put up with the weather and freshen up my closet (excuse, I know.)

Nothing says summer like open shoulder tops and pastel colours. So one thing I got was this cute top from Zara when I travelled to London two months ago.

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At first I was a little hesitant because it looked a little too fancy and girly for me. But now I’ve worn it a couple times, I’m totally in LOVE. It makes me look put together and like I’ve spent time dressing up myself.

I pair it with a pair of light grey jeans from American Eagle (I got those a couple years ago, but I’m pretty sure you can still get them now) to go to work. On a side note, these skinny jeans are really comfy and always on trend, they are a great investment to add in the closet. For shoes, you can go casual with flats or a little dressy with heels.

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On weekends I like to be causal and free and wear what I can’t at work. So I match the top with a pair of mid-waist jean shorts from Hollister (those were not new as well, but you can still get similar ones!) To look more summery I’m going with an orange Micro Moto Satchel from Rebecca Minkoff and a pair of wedges or sandals.

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Don’t forget the accessories!

Hope you guys enjoyed! Happy shopping!

I Feel Like I’m Trying So Hard And Not Going Anywhere.

I don’t like to talk about my struggles. But today I want to force myself to look at myself.

I feel like I’m trying so hard and not going anywhere.

I work in the digital marketing field, which is very consuming and fast paced. I remember when I was so passionate about my job, when I was looking forward to every single piece of my work to be published no matter how small and subtle it was. I worked 10 hours a day minimum and occasionally during weekends and holidays if needed. I wanted to learn and grow as fast as I could.

Hard work pays off. I got promoted right before reaching the 1-year milestone with the company. Sounds great, huh?

Alright I wouldn’t say that promotion was a big deal since I’m still a small potato, but at least it was an encouragement of some sort. But then things went down hill. I started making mistakes I should have know better. I started annoying people, receiving bad feedbacks, being scolded. I started losing focus. I started being the grumpy little girl.

At times it feels like I work so much that I can’t grow, if that even makes sense. I don’t have time to think about my work quality, I don’t have time to think about myself, I don’t have time to live a life. I feel like I’m being mistaken and used. And I don’t want to and can’t blame anyone on this. I’m the only one to blame.

Time management. Initiation. Passion. Mindset. What has gone wrong?

Work shouldn’t be the only thing in life. Yet I don’t have time and energy for my family, friends and myself. AND I’m not even close to be good at what I do. Dang. That feeling when you’re like, “why am I even trying?” Ya feel me?

This is hard. It’s so hard to be realizing you have so many problems, when you thought you were excelling. I thought about quitting. Going back to school. But the problem wouldn’t be solved. Should I stick around until I get fired? I wish I had an answer.

I’m staying around just because giving up sounds really lame. Will I be quitting? Definitely, just not at this point. When I get myself and everything figured out, I’ll be leaving to somewhere that needs me and makes me feel more content. But until then, giving up isn’t an answer.

I wish someone would take my hand and tell me it’s gonna be okay.  I just want to be a happy and valuable daughter, sister, friend, employee. I just want to like myself.

Sorry today I’m a downer. At least I’ve got this little platform of my own, where I can just be myself and not care about shit. It’ll get better, right? Just tell me it’s gonna be okay.:)

10 Signs the World Is Forcing You To Grow Up

I have to say that this title makes me sound a lot more mature and “old” than I really am. I am an adult by age but by no means am I qualified as a full grown up. There are times (a lot of times) I make mistakes I shouldn’t make, where I can’t hold temper, where I get called childish… But as time goes on, apart from the physical changes, I realize many things that I was told are actually true and they finally make sense, and things that I appreciate more now than ever. I don’t know why I wanted to grow up, I don’t know why I wanted to graduate, because being an adult in many ways sucks (see, this is me being childish.) Let’s just jump right in and see what has happened to me in this process.

  1. You notice more wrinkles and freckles on your face rather than pimples.
    Well, this is basic. I think I was 19 when I noticed my first fine line underneath my right eye and I told me dad about it, and he said, “don’t worry, it’ll only get worse.” Thanks, dad. I still remember when I could make faces and not having to worry about the fine lines on my face or around my eyes. Now I laugh and get what’s called “nasolabial folds” (the laugh lines you (I) get next to your (my) mouth when you (I) laugh.)I still get pimples sometimes, but I also have freckles all the time.
  2. You “want” to workout more.
    It’s not like I actually workout everyday. But I definitely want to or at least think about working out more now. I used to go to the gym a lot in college, mostly because I wanted to be in shape. Now I want to workout because I feel the need to. I’m not as healthy and energetic; my metabolism is slow as hell. I even started doing some home and before bed exercise.
  3. You talk about pooping with your friends.
    Not entirely sure if I should get into this topic. In general, my friends and I talk about health and how to maintain a healthy body a lot more often now. Let’s just have a little example.
    Me: I haven’t pooped today. (crying face)
    Friend: Same! I’ve been eating a lot of veggies lately but I’m still not able to go everyday.
    Me: Have you heard of [xxx detox]? I wanna give it a try.
  4. People around you start getting married and having kids. On purpose.
    I’m not saying unplanned kids are unwanted, absolutely not. I have seen a lot of unplanned kids and their parents still love them to the max. But seriously, who’s NOT getting married? I was a bridesmaid of one of my best friends back over a year ago, and I was the oldest girl there that wasn’t married. Say what? FML.
  5. When the new celebrities are your age.
    I used to tease my dad about him messing up all the singers and actors; I really shouldn’t have. Now I turn the TV on and like, did this band just come out this year? No, they were new two years ago. And they are your age. K. I need to keep up.
  6. You are not the youngest in your office.
    Wait till the day you hear someone calls, “kiddo.” And you turn around just to realize they aren’t calling you. I mean, it’s okay you’re not the youngest, but you’re still doing the same duties and you make stupid mistakes and you’re ashamed and afraid at the same time. Is this even “growing up”? I can’t tell.
  7. You receive multiple bills a month.
    Do I really need to explain this?
  8. You experience goodbyes. sickness and deaths.
    I have never really been able to handle goodbyes very well. Either just a relationship goodbye or an actual goodbye when someone passes away. Fortunately I never really had to deal with deaths and funerals at a young age. I used to tell people all my grandparents were happily alive. Then all of a sudden people around me, either close or not close, got sick, and some died. And I was just there like, what? No? Why? Life is so fragile, you never know what’s gonna happen next. I am a person who needs to know what’s going on. I can watch the same movie over and over again, not because I love it, but I like the feeling of knowing what happens next. But life keeps telling me, no, you can’t always control everything. Even without the goodbyes you still can’t. Because that IS life. Suck it up.
  9. You figure you don’t know a lot of things.
    I used to want to be a very knowledgable and intelligent person. Of course I still do. But in real life, there are many people that are more knowledgable and intelligent, they have keen observations, clear thoughts and (seem to) always make the right decisions. The world is so big, you will never learn everything nor will you be the smartest person. But you can keep learning and be the best of yourself. This is one very big lesson I am learning everyday. Be humble.
  10. You appreciate family a lot more now.
    It’s not like I didn’t appreciate my family, I love them, always have. But now I’d think about my parents and get teared up a little. I realize even my little sister is more dependable than anyone. The love and care I receive from my family is unconditional and everlasting. I want to spend quality time with my family and I’m not too cool for family day anymore.

I feel so worried and scared as I make this list. It feels like I’m going through a lot but am still so green and immature. It feels like I’m trying so hard and not getting anywhere. Maybe this is a part of “growing up”? I’m not sure. Some people have been popping into my head. We met when we were young, we made mistakes together. And even though you’re not reading this right now, I wish we could have grown together, I genuinely hope life has been treating you well and that you stay true to yourself and keep your awesomeness as you grow. I miss you.